shit.

Sometimes, I really can't help but hate you this situation you've got me in.

I didn't have a choice about something that affects my life in such a huge way. God, is this really what I want? No. That's the easy answer. I DON'T WANT THIS!! I don't! I never did! But here I am. Every single day thinking about it.

The real question: is it worth it? Is it? Are you?
Every day that slips by brings me closer to what I want, but also makes me question what I was so sure about. This is the ultimate test- it shouldn't be. As if I haven't had to prove myself a thousand times before.

This was supposed to get easier. Why do you have to do this to me?

no no

So this should be obvious and it usually is to me, but he can be very persuasive. Especially when paired with alcohol. Don't send naked pictures to anyone. Sheesh.